So… Something.

(: I’m so glad you are reading it. I know that my life is His witness so I’m always glad to share what He’s doing in me.

This leveled me. Flat out, knock down laid me on my back. I’ve been laying here ever since mulling over how she is building her legacy from the ground up, following God with complete transparency. She will be remembered. Her life will make a difference. Her children and her children’s children will be encouraged and lifted up because they can watch her life unfold. God has great plans for this one.

And all this mulling made me wonder what I was doing to record what He’s doing in me. I wonder what my grandchildren will think of me when I’ve returned to dust. How will I be remembered? If there are generations after me, how will I provide the training needed to get beyond the level of anointing that God will pour out on me in the climax of my life? That sounds prideful, but it’s not. God bestows a level of revelation, wisdom, anointing on every person; I will be no different. I just don’t want it to end here. I want to provide a springboard for the people that come after me to fling themselves deeper into God, higher into His glory.

I once heard it said that we will never get beyond the level of anointing another person has been granted until we honor that person for the work they have done in the Kingdom. The thing that determines whether you are honored or not is your legacy.

In this social world, we’ll all leave a legacy. The question is what that legacy says about us. Will we be remembered as the life of the party, the clown, the screwup? Will Facebook label us? Will Twitter? Will our own thoughts? Will people have to rely on fading memories or will they have something concrete to look back on?

I’m beginning to think that the only way to be truly transparent is to record what God’s doing. Yeah, I’m talking about journaling.

I know, I know; don’t roll your eyes. But how else can it be done? We need to record what the Lord is doing, what He’s saying so that the generations that come after us can follow along to what led us to wherever God is taking us.

This doesn’t have to be an exercise in torture, or some daily chore. It doesn’t even have to be daily. But I believe we all need some kind of system to record what God says to us personally, what He does in our lives. I carry a notebook practically everywhere I go; I call it my Jesus Book. Whenever God speaks or I notice that He’s doing something in my life, I record it. That’s all it has to be. A simple scribing of the facts.

It doesn’t have to be a notebook, either. It can be a note app on your phone. A folder on your computer. A bunch of videos saved to your computer. A drawer in your dresser stuffed with paper. Whatever it takes to make sure that God is being honored and we are being transparent.

If we record what God does, He is honored. Honoring Him opens the door to more revelation. More revelation means that we leave a bigger legacy.

When I was really young, all I wanted was to be a missionary. After a while, I grew up and got a more realistic dream: I wanted to be a pastor. Youth pastor, specifically. Fortunately for the poor souls who would have had to sit under my pastorship, God had other plans. He revealed my passion for publishing, and so that’s the route I’m walking on. I have every assurance that the business I will start will be rewarding and fulfilling and all the things that He has promised.

But.

(Yeah, there’s a but. I’m beginning to hate that word; it reeks of dissatisfaction. The stupid thing should be cut out of the dictionary.)

But.

But those dreams from my childhood never completely died. The thing is, whenever I pictured myself as a pastor or a missionary I was never counseling a troubled teen through his parents’ divorce or smuggling Bibles into communist countries. Do I want to see these things happen? Yes. Do I want to feed the hungry and see the miracles and see souls come to Christ by the millions? Yes! But as amazing and awe-inspiring as these things are, they were never what I pictured myself doing when I dreamed about my future in the ministry. So what was the dream? What did I see myself doing 10, 20, 50 years down the road?

I was teaching.

That’s all I wanted to do. I wanted to stand in front of crowds and explain the things of God in ways they could understand. So when God told me that He did not call me to the ministry, I was a little crushed. I trusted that He knew best, though, and shelved the dream. I left it behind and pressed on towards the new dream that He had yet to reveal to me. And yes, He does know best; after a few years I realized that I was born for prophetic business and that I am way too abrasive to adopt the calming, soothing presence that is needed for a pastor. Pretending to be something I’m not would’ve destroyed me. God is so wise!

But throughout all the excitement of finding out who I am and what I am meant to do, I couldn’t shake the twinge of sadness at the thought that I would never speak God’s Word to a crowd of people. Oh, I tried. Goodness knows I tried. I stuffed the dream into the deepest recesses of my psyche. I prayed. I pretended it didn’t exist. I told myself it was pride and ran away as fast as I could. I got angry and told it to leave, NOW. But no matter what I did, it was always there, following me, whispering its tales of what might have been. It never gave up, even though God was teaching me humility and the dream seemed prideful. It never went away.

I walked around with this shameful secret that I wouldn’t allow myself to tell anyone, not even God. Oh, I would skirt the issue. “Oh, someday I would love to teach a small class on writing or something. You know. Haha. Pipe dreams.” I would never reveal the depravity of my pride. I pretended God didn’t see and know. What would He think of me if He knew that I dreamed of speaking in front of thousands of people? I love Him; He couldn’t know. He would be disappointed. I couldn’t deal with that.

This was my thought process. I was a shameful, sinful, prideful disgrace of a human.

But God.

(Ok, the word can stay. It has redeemed itself.)

But God set me up for deliverance. He put me in the right place, at the right time, to hear what He wanted me to hear. It came in the form of a sermon by Bob Johnson, who has a church in San Francisco. it wasn’t even the entire sermon. Pastor Johnson was talking about dreaming, and gave an example of someone dreaming their entire life of owning a Ferarri. He explained that this dream might seem prideful and material and might even make the person feel guilty. This so perfectly mirrored how I felt about my dream that I sat up and listened harder. Pastor Johnson encouraged everyone to dream, because who knows but that that dream might be from God.

This clicked in my Spirit. Suddenly, something broke in me. Shame and guilt fell away and ideas for what I could teach flooded my mind. Joy and excitement filled me. Anticipation built in me as I realized that those dreams ARE from God and He put them there for a reason.

So I’m getting this down. I’m honoring the Lord by recording what He has said and done. I’m writing it on the tablets of my heart: I’m a teacher. I will teach to others what the Lord has taught and will teach me. I will explain the deep things of God. I will make a difference, not only in the books I publish and the writers I find, but in the words I say. My words will have impact.

This is it.

This is part of my calling.

Let’s do this.

What do I mean when I say prophetic? Basically, I’m talking about novels that convey biblical truths in story form. These novels get across what God is saying, who He is, or what He’s doing in a story that will stick with the reader.

Jesus was a Master at this technique. He understood that stories would stick with his followers more than simple sermons would; that’s why nearly every time He spoke, a parable worked its way in there. People can mull over a parable, pick it apart, put it back together. They get new revelation out of it each time they read it.

That’s prophetic fiction.

Prophetic fiction will teach people about God, what He’s doing and who He is, through characters that will stick with the reader. I believe that this kind of fiction is on the rise in CBA. People are waking up and realizing that they’re not satisfied writing fiction that merely entertains anymore. God is grabbing hold of the writers’ pens and writing His story through them. The story is king and the message is still getting across. It’s a beautiful thing.

The problem, however, with this kind of writing is that people have the opportunity to get prideful. They know that they’re hearing God. They know that God wants to use what they’re writing to make a difference. They know that they are gifted and blessed and talented. Suddenly they think something like, “Wow, God is really doing cool stuff with this!”

Then, “That sentence was written really beautifully. Thank You, God!”

Then, “This character could be better. I can do better than this.”

Then, “I’m doing awesome!”

Then, “This is the best stuff I’ve ever written.”

Then, “This is totally God-breathed. Any agent that wouldn’t accept this is an idiot! I could totally sell thousands of copies in a blink.”

Sounds kind of silly, right? But this is how people act in regular CBA, so I can imagine how people will act when they really know that they are writing exactly what God wants written. (If you don’t believe me, check out agents like Rachelle Gardner on Twitter. They’ll tell you.) We see it every day: people with gifts get prideful in the fact that they are gifted. Often (especially with people who are prophetic or elevated in leadership), this pride will end up hurting people. How does this pride translate to writing? You won’t get signed. You’ll be seen as a difficult client who is impossible to teach. Worst case scenario, you’ll be blackballed in the industry because you’re so impossible to teach.

The thing is, you’re not special. No matter how blessed and gifted and how much you hear God, you still have to put in the time. You have to do the work. You’re considered an expert in writing (or any subject) when you have put in 10,000 hours of work. That is 20 hours a week, every week, for 10 years. And that’s just writing time.

A lot of people will scoff at this. After all, if you’re hearing God, then you’re golden, right? God won’t allow mistakes in what He’s telling you to write. He’ll make sure that everything is so good that it’ll barely need revising, right?

Uh… not exactly.

The thing that we have to remember is that we’re human. God is God and cannot, will not make mistakes; He will allow us to, though. Why? Because He knows that allowing us to make mistakes will create a kind of buffer against pride. But even with this buffer, we can become prideful in our gifts and talents. So how do we stop the inevitable? How do we keep from becoming prideful, arrogant, and unteachable?

Borrow a page from King Solomon for the writing life: accept correction and don’t turn your nose when people point out our shortcomings. Surround yourself with people who will not only encourage you, but will also be brutally honest. Join a critique group. Don’t scoff when people tell you that the character you’ve been laboring over for months is over-edited or a scene you love needs to be cut. Set yourself up for criticism, then take it to heart when you get it.

The best thing we can do, however, is to pray for God to humble us. Yes, this is a dangerous prayer. Yes, He won’t stop at just your writing if you ask this. And yes, it is a painful process that will last for a long, long time. But you know what? The more humble we are, the more God will trust us. The more humble we are, the more we can be taught and the higher God will elevate us, whether it’s in gifting or leadership or what have you. The most humble people are usually found at the end of the line, way back there where they’re working quietly and diligently at whatever task the Lord puts in front of them. Funny thing about those “last” people: they’re first in God’s eyes. And that’s really where we all want to be.

Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits, whether they are of God; because many false prophets have gone out into the world.

1 John 4:1

My dad is an astounding man of God. He’s a gifted teacher, and because of that gifting, he has to have everything that the Lord speaks or does or what people do in His name backed up by the Bible. He taught me, from a young age, to find something in the Bible to back up every word, every dream, every vision. If it isn’t there, he has a hard time believing it’s God.

This is common among the Church. In fact, I don’t outright disagree with this view: we really do need to back everything up against the Word of God. The problem I have is when people say that the only things that are allowed are things that have been done and recorded in the Bible. That’s not right.

Before someone finds this blog and blasts me for that, let me clarify: I’m not saying that things can conflict with the Bible and be of God. If what you’re hearing, what you’re seeing is from the Lord, then there won’t be anything about it that directly conflicts with the Bible. The Bible is God’s written Word, and if He could contradict Himself He would not be God.

That said, I don’t believe that God is limited to what He has already done. He can go beyond that. We live in the most blessed times in the history of the World because God is about to pour out His Spirit for the final time. I live in anticipation of the great outpouring of the Spirit that was prophesied in Joel 2. It will be here before I die. And when it comes, we will truly do greater things that Jesus Himself did. The humble men and women of God, the ones no one sees, will raise the dead and watch the lame get healed. They will see the deaf begin to hear and the blind begin to see. And they will do greater things that we can even begin to imagine, because that’s what Jesus said.

But when this happens — when people begin to operate in a greater anointing than is ever seen in the Bible — a lot of people are going to be left behind. They won’t understand how these men and women of God can speak these prophetic utterances and do these great, supernatural deeds that are not in the Bible. They will turn their backs on the Spirit of the living God and run to what is familiar. They will search the Bible and not find the answers they’re looking for. At that time, all the great things we have said for years about backing everything against the Bible will show itself for what it really is: bad theology.

The Bible itself is not the end-all, be-all Word of God. The Word of God is not something you can hold in your hand and put on a shelf to gather dust. It is not something a Pastor can wave at you from a pulpit or something that can be burned in a fire. The Word of God is eternal, translational, breathing.

In essence: the Word is not a what, but a Whom.

In the Beginning the Word already existed.  The Word was with God, and the Word was God. He existed in the beginning with God… The Word gave life to everything that was created, and His life brought light to everyone. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it.

John 1: 1-5

The Word of God is Jesus Christ.

The Bible, as we know it, is like the foundation on a house. A house must have a foundation to be built; however, a foundation alone is not reaching the fullness of its potential. It must have something added to it in order to reach its destiny. The Bible is actually a guide to find the true Word of God. It helps us to find out Who God is, Who Jesus is. It helps to catapult us into relationship with God Almighty. After we have begun our relationship with Jesus, with God, things can happen that go beyond the Bible, because the Bible is not Who Jesus is. It just describes Him.

I have applied to Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry in Redding, California. One of the things that a lot of people hate about that school and Bethel Church in general is that things happen there that are not recorded in the Bible. For example, precious stones might appear in front of people or feathers might fall from the sky. I’ve been in meetings where oil began to flow from a man’s forehead, hands, and feet or gold dust appeared on people. These things are not in the Bible and so a lot of people blast Bethel and the ministries Bethel associates with because they sometimes cannot back up what’s going on with a verse or a chapter. They are stepping beyond the Bible.

However, just like in Exodus, the demonic realm can imitate what God is doing. When those things are outside of the Bible itself, how can people be sure that what they are seeing is truly a miraculous sign or wonder from God, and not just a cheap parlor trick from the other side?

Just like we’ve always heard it preached, we must bounce everything off the Word of God. After making sure what is happening does not directly conflict the Bible — because God can not contradict Himself and the Bible is the written Word of God — we must take it to the living Word of God. We must take it back to Jesus Christ. And the only way to make sure that you are hearing God’s voice correctly is to have relationship with Him, which is only done by reading the Bible and learning about Him. Then God can take us beyond the Bible and, since we have the foundation and have learned His presence and voice, we can correctly discern in the moment what is from God and what is not.

It’s all about relationship. Our destinies, our prophetic revelations, our ministries — it all stems out of living, breathing relationship with the living, breathing Word of God.

I’m blessed to have a great relationship with my mom.  We often to go lunch or dinner just to talk about the Lord and what He’s doing, both in our individual lives and in the world around us.  Sometimes we talk about different ministries and what they believe or how they are doing.  I’ve had a problem in the past, where if I don’t agree with something that a ministry is doing or if someone seems a little… off, I’ll discredit the entire ministry.  My mom would then tell me not to throw the baby out with the bathwater.  I didn’t understand it for a long time until the Lord started using that same phrase to teach me about discernment.

See, I think that the Church shares my problem.  We’ll either completely buy into whatever is thrown at us, or we refuse to believe in anything that doesn’t come verbatim from the Word of God.  Now, while it’s correct that we need to reject anything that is in direct conflict with the Bible, I don’t believe that the Bible is the only source of God’s Word.  The Sovereign Lord is constantly speaking, to everyone on the planet.  Different people are then taking what they hear and ministering those words to others in every format under the sun.  Prophets are even on Twitter nowadays (my favorite is .

I know people on both sides of the spectrum.  I’ve spoken to people who think I’m insane and flighty for buying into ministries headed by people like Jason Westerfield, James Goll, and Joann McFatter.  I’ve also been to conferences with people who latch onto every new ministry that comes out and take every word they say as Gospel.

Both views are wrong.  Wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong. Slap a big ol’ F on their report cards because they are wrong.

Refusing to even listen to something because it’s new isn’t good because then you miss out on what God is doing.  But then, believing every word from a self-proclaimed prophet that finds its way over Twitter is just as bad.  So how can you find the middle ground?  Oh wait, don’t we have an all-knowing, all-seeing God?

Remember when I said that God speaks to everyone, all the time?  I truly believe that.  And if He’s talking all the time, then He’s talking while you are reading a book, or watching TV, or listening to a preacher.  Doesn’t it make sense that He’d talk to you about whether or not what you’re reading or hearing is straight from His mouth?

See, even with the best of intentions, no one is 100% correct 100% of the time.  Therefore, even if you completely trust in a ministry with all of your heart, they are going to get something wrong every once in a while.  They’re human; it’s allowed.  If you aren’t subjecting everything that comes out of their mouth to a strong God-filter, then you could listen to something that’s completely wrong and wind up in a really bad place with beliefs that don’t line up with the word of God.

One of my favorite examples of this is The Shack by William Young.  I truly believe that this book is inspired by God (yeah, it does happen nowadays, which you hopefully know if you’re a writer!).  But Young does mess up. For example, he has the Jesus character having a conversation with the main character at one point.  ”Jesus” says: “Papa is as much submitted to me as I am to him, or Sarayu to me, or Papa to her. Submission is not about authority and it is not obedience; it is all about relationships of love and respect. In fact, we are submitted to you in the same way.”

Red flag!  This is wrong.  God is not submissive to humans; that puts humans on a greater plane than the Creator.  Ehhhhhh (that was a buzzer sound, in case you couldn’t tell.)

But just because Young was off on that one point (OK, several points throughout the book) doesn’t mean that we should just throw out the entire novel.  He offers a lot of good insight.  Instead, what we, the readers, need to do is ask God to throw out anything that’s wrong.  Anything that doesn’t line up with the Word of God needs to be thrown out, discarded, rejected.  What we’re left with is the stuff that God wants us to know, and even that needs to go through the wringer to make sure it’s completely, 100% in line.

So how do we do this?  We do this by asking. You know that whole, ask and you shall receive thing?  It actually works.  God will start speaking to you throughout your day, helping you to understand and filter out everything you hear or see.  He’ll do this when you’re talking to your parents, hearing your pastor speak, reading a book, listening to a podcast, reading your tweets.  Pretty soon it’ll become second nature to subject everything to your God-filter.  Plus, you get to learn to hear God always, which is always a plus.

Wait, I didn’t sound excited enough on that.

WE GET TO HEAR GOD SPEAK, ALL THE TIME!!!!

Go figure: the One Who Created All actually wants to help you juggle this stuff.  Who knew?

See, when I am praying for someone in the anointing, I see pictures.  Brief flashes of insight that might give someone hope, or explanation, or just something new that the Alpha and Omega wants declared.  So I’ll pray it.  I’m not trying to brag or anything similar; if you heard me pray out loud, you’d know I’m pretty much the least eloquent one around.  But what this tells me is that I’m a visual person.  When I need to know what to pray, the Lord shows me pictures.  He also does it when I write.

Ay, there’s the rub.

See, I’m not original.  At all.  Everything I write doesn’t come from my imagination, that I might boast in it.  Instead, I have to rely completely upon the One who created story, the One who created my imagination, the One who created my mind, for every little piece.  He basically dictates everything in pictures and I just describe it.

Then it’s never good enough, so He has to tell me how to describe it.  It’s actually a fun process.

So now y’all know.  I’m a bold, unashamed cheater.  But I know I’m not the only one.  So tell me, how do you write in the anointing?

Leviticus 27:30

What is tithe?

The Bible defines a tithe as a tenth of the  crops.  OK… so you get that.  If you walk into a church, at some point they’re going to say something about giving a tenth of your income to God.  This has been around since Leviticus times and it’s nothing new.  Most Christians will write a check once a month or every other week or whenever they get their paycheck and stick it in the bucket as it comes around.  Then they’re done until their next paycheck, right?

Uh… not exactly.

At least not the way I understand it.  The way I understand it, the most common type of tithe is of your income.  But it’s not the only thing you can tithe.  The Biblical Israelites would give a tenth of whatever they were given back to God.  It didn’t matter if it was crops, wine, livestock, etc… anything the Lord doled out was given back in a small measure.  They did this, not only in worship and obedience, but in order to remember God and the blessings He gave them.

And there’s the kicker: God gave first.

Well, duh.  I can picture y’all’s eyes rolling right now.  But, hey, wait, don’t close the window!  I’ve got a point.

Just like our income, whatever talents we have are gifts from God.  Yeah, I’m talking about writing here.  And whatever God gives us, we need to give back in a tithe, back to the One who gave it to us.  But you know what’s really cool?  This is one of my favorite things about God (uh… ok, favorite being a relative term since He’s too amazing):

Malachi 3:10 states that when you give a tithe (10%) to the Lord, He opens the windows of heaven for you and pours down blessings beyond anything you can imagine.  The parable of the three servants tells us that when we are faithful with the small amount of blessing God has given us, He trusts us with much more (Matthew 25:14-30).  Part of being faithful is giving the blessing back to God.

These are Kingdom principles. They are unchanging, unquestionable laws in that upside-down backwards Kingdom that works so much better than ours.  When we give our writing back to the Holy One to do whatever He will, not only does He make us better writers, but He also reveals more of His plan and His purpose both for us personally but also for others, to be revealed through your writing.

And just think: if He does all that for a tenth of your writing gift, imagine what He’d do if you handed it all over?  So try it.  He’s a better Writer, anyway.

Now, I have nothing against non-fiction.  I’ve been known to read Bill Johnson or Mahesh and Bonnie Chavda, Patricia King or James Goll.  These authors are all incredibly anointed and should be read.  And, he’s right, most fiction is meant strictly to entertain.  My bookshelves are full of novels that are absolutely meant to entertain.  But then, there are those exceptions.  Those books that teach you how to hear God, or something new about Who He is, or something about what He’s doing right now. For example, some books that have spoken to me personally:

• This Present Darkness and Piercing the Darkness by Frank Peretti
• Blessed Child by Ted Dekker
• The Shack by William Young

But here’s the deal: each of these novels taught me something new. Frank Peretti opened my eyes to spiritual warfare.  Ted Dekker taught me just how accessible the Kingdom is.  And The Shack… well, The Shack might as well be non-fiction for all the information it is pregnant with.  It’s not perfect, but when read with discernment I believe it can serve a very profound purpose.

Each of these novels helped me to understand something new about how to walk the Walk and talk the Talk.  They also taught me something new about how God works and Who He is.  The one thing I love most about them is that they’re not preachy.

Newsflash: No one wants to read something if they’re being preached at!  Save that for Sunday morning.

Instead, in fiction, the message needs to be subtle.  Story first; message second.  If your story is well-written — if it is driven by characters that seem real and not forced — then it will stay with your reader.  They’ll find themselves pondering the message even if they don’t realize it.  The lesson that God has given you to convey through fiction will sneak in like a thief in the night; it’ll grab hold of the reader and never let them go.

Jesus was the master of this technique.  All of his parables were character-driven and promoted deep, intelligent thought at the same time.  They were easily memorized yet, for the discerning reader, they will never grow stale.  There will always be a need for this kind of steal-in-the-dark fiction because it will reach an audience that would never in a million years pick up a non-fiction work.  The only question is: are you willing to hand your pen over to the Master?

Food for thought.

So, here’s the deal.  I’ve got a bunch of blog posts laid out in my head so I’m actually going to get on a schedule from now on.  I’m going to start it slow, and just go Monday, Wednesday, Friday with maybe a few random other days thrown in along the way.  I’ve been reading and advising people all over the internets that we all need to have a blog (case in point: check out this great post by Jeff Holton: Seven Reasons Why You (Yes, You!) Should Have a Blog) and I have finally decided to practice what I preach. So my first “real” post will be on Wednesday, this is just the obligatory grand reopening post.

Have a great Monday!